Re~discover

ReDiscover:-[14th century. Via Old French descovrir <>To find something out - Again

NAMASTE:

Though I scribe with wires, I hope to write with the fluency of familiarity & reflection. Lets pretend we are already friends discussing life's intricacies over a cup of tea. Me Casa en su Casa....or at least something like that (!)

...And so another year walks to the tomb to be but dust and philosophy, gawd I love new year!

In our farewell I feel compelled to be gracious, to bow my head in acknowledgement, the heaviness of gratitude humbling me.

Above anything I have cherished the moments in 2009 that tested my resolve, for here in this picture frame you see that life's abstracts are all artworks. I have truly learnt something. That we must hold every phase in our lives sacred, for we do not know when we might lose the oppertunity to feel anything at all.

I have understood sadness my own and others, I've allowed myself to examine it, to turn it over and revise every contour, until at last I realised that sadness should be thought of as just a smooth stone. Hold it, feel its shape and then throw it, watch it skim the waters then disappear. Pains neednt define you, they are merely life's utensils, change the tool and your shape changes too.

I confess to feeling vulnerable at times, the same that I feel exposed to happiness, when I feel jovial there is a fragment within me that is terrified something will snatch it away from me. This I have come to learn means that I have something worth missing. Its made me love voraciously, not to be afraid by the intensity of my emotions for they make me Sophia. For all that I am.

This year I saw poverty for real. It has taught me to seek the simplicity of being, wholly and quintessentially you, that we must all seek the quiet. We are alive. And that my friends is a blessing in itself.

I have found wonderment in academia but discovered that letters after your surname is not the be all and end all.

Perfectionism is a disease that decays the simple beauties in life, its ok to be human and not have all of the answers all of the time. Mistakes are what make us whole, its the constant yearining, our curiosity- for getting up ignoring grazed knees and carrying on anyway- thats the important bit!

As I stride towards 2010 I am filled with optimism. I hope that I am able to pause in the moments of wonderment and fully appreciate the awesomness of being here (and not just a facebook photo op, guilty as charged)!

I hope I read more books that sculpt thoughts and ideas with beauty. I hope I love unburdened by fear, or at least without decorum (the best kind of love)! Above everything I hope that this year I own my actions, that I live with deliberation and help those that need me, the same as those who might not know they need me. I hope I learn to forgive myself for yearning all of the time, wanting to be the best that I can be, because that wanderlust got me where I am today. I hope that I realise that its ok to be in the right here right now and not always to be looking towards the horizon. Look around see where the light hits.

To all Thank you for being a part of it. X

As I'm embarking on a year full of change and uphevel (Leaving uni, new romance, wanting to live off-grid, aromatherapy course, econess and travel) I've decided to list my goals and share my experiences throughout the year with you lovely people, friends, acquaintances and the people who have just happened upon this blog!

So to summarise the resolutions are:-

1. To write a blog *frequently* (Yay strike one)!

2. To learn how to knit (And strike two, expect wonky scarves for gifts lovely people)!

3. To embrace all things holistic (...veg growing, aromatherapy, herbal medicine, stove building, solar energy)

4. To make living in a yurt/bender/ narrow boat a reality (or at least a well formulated plan)

5. To tell the people who mean the most that I love them a ridiculous, vomit inducing, soppy dancing in the rain, all day everyday kind of way =)

Aloha Friends!